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So I tried to distract myself today from all of these craziness by going to watch a comedy movie but I guess that did not work at all. I still thought about stuff and could not even force myself to laugh. The last time I had this empty feeling was three years ago when I officially broke up with Redmond. I feel like I'm running away from my problems and do not have the courage to face the truth. I do not dare to log on to Yahoo Messenger, FB, emails, and even turn off my cell phone. This is crazy. For the whole time I thought I could handle it but it turned out that I could not do anything at all.

Gosh, please just shoot me. I don't want to deal with this anymore. It's way too much for me.

Rachel Tu